Just over a week ago I arrived back after a holiday with my Mom and Step Dad, my Pops I call him. Two weeks in Calis Beach Turkey, now before I even packed my case I had decided this was going to be a healthy holiday, no alcohol, or ice creams or cakes or any rubbish, I had not even lost the weight I had gained last holiday some 24 lbs, that was a lesson learned, which is why I have not repeated it this year. Since that large gain last June I have struggled to get a grip, have had lots of ups and downs, but somehow have been losing the same 14 lbs in the last year. Every line drawn was a win, every effort made to pull it back was a triumph, I have come to accept it will always be this way for me and I am ok with that.
so holiday in Turkey with my parents was truly memory making, I ate large healthy breakfasts consisting of lots of fruit, eggs, sometimes wholemeal toast no butter or jam. Milk was hard to control as had no idea what it was, but I was not going without my morning coffee!! We spent leisurely days around the pool or should I say in the pool as it was so very hot, at times quite hard to deal with, hence I became a water baby for two weeks, playing ball with my Mom in the pool brought back childhood memories and my Pops got in the water first time in 30 years as a non swimmer I was very proud of him. I tackled getting onto an air bed, it was like a scene from a movie, Lisa Tames The Raging Inflatable Alligator, such joy I had spending quite some time determined to get on it without help and I did. It was amazing to be able to pick fresh figs from the tree next to the pool, maybe that is where my weight gain came from ? Other eventful moments were have a Turkish bath and a body massage, things I would have never have done at my biggest. Wearing pretty dresses and heels, feeling comfortable in my own body and very happy to have my flabby legs and arms on display, they are part of my story of who I am.
During the day it was too hot to eat, so while everyone else tucked into ice cream my treat was a cold glass bottle of diet coke, never once did I feel left out, my joy was sitting in the middle of the pool on the ledge sunning myself, being able to lift myself up onto the ledge and feeling comfortable for the world to see me, was worth more than any ice cream. Evening meals were taken at an array of restaurants, the one thing about eating in Turkey is you can eat traditional food or very easily choose to eat the basics which is what I did, chicken, steak, fish, salad and jacket potatoes, fruit salads on occasion a little home made bread, it was so hard to resist! Drinks at the table were ice cold bottled soda water which I would sometimes flavour with my own squash drops I took with me or diet coke and I was so drunk on life I was content.
When I weighed in post holiday I was pretty shocked to have gained weight, I felt smaller but who knows, my body has proven over the last 4 years it has a mind of its own when concerning the scales, none the less I have taken it in my stride and continued to eat on plan and healthy, most of all I have a healthy mind set at the moment, which I feel is key to making good choices, being positive even with set backs is my own little miracle.
Much of the holiday I saw many street dogs and just wanted to take them all home, just loved Bandit and Teddy so much, was hard to leave them behind, there is a great team in Calis Beach that runs a care fund raising group which supports the street dogs, such wonderful group of people, if you are interested you can find out more here.
Soon I am going on holiday with my husband for two weeks – I plan to live much the same on that holiday, but may let myself have the odd ice cream, we shall see, the one thing I am sure of is that one can never say never, thats the biggest mistake I used to make, because when I broke that promise to myself I hated myself so much and would go off the rails! So patience and persistence and self love is all you need to make changes in life, that is what I try and do daily.
Keep smiling and just take a day at a time